The movie was awesome for the first three quaters of it... And then there was this wierd, horrible twist that just took the whole move down to this dark level, revealing all these deep, demonic, hidden meanings!
COMPLETELY freaked me out... Literally leaving me to the point of leaving the theatre... Running!!!
And even though me squeeling and doing a light sprint out of the movie gave people, including my friend, a bit of a giggle... My body was honestly shaking!
It shifted somthing in my spirit that made me feel SO heavy to the point of feeling crushed! My heart was beating like it never has before and it scared me so much to think that that at one point in my life, a long point, I was able to sit in a movie theatre, watching a movie like this, and not even flinch a little, tiny bit!!
So with the movie on one side of the doors and me on the other, I had a sit and a little think about it all!
Why had I completely freaked out? Why could I not just sit there and close my eyes? Block my ears? Why had these things all of a sudden started to affect me... When they never had before?
I remembered, while I was sitting, an image a friend once described to me. She said:
We walk around, every single day, with our shoes on.
We walk down streets, over grass, over hard things, soft things, hot and cold things... But our shoes protect us from feeling any of these things. They protect our feet from any harm... Like a stubbed toe or hot summer gravel! Eventhough, we can see a rough, hot or dangerous surface infront of us, it doesn't matter... Because we won't be able to feel it.
The first thing you do when you get home, after a full day at work, is you take off your shoes. Your home, your comfortable, your ready to relax for the night, get into your pjamas and chill!!
BUT... You take of your shoes and you can suddenly feel everything! Not only do you see things infront of you, you feel them as well!
It's like when you finally come to know Jesus as a personal saviour and as a best friend!
We finally come home, to our loving Father who has been patiently waiting. Finally come home to our true plan, purpose and an intimate feeling of belonging!
We walked through life for so long with our shoes on, going into night clubs and seeing so many 'semi-average looking ladies' sell themselves short, dance all over men to finally get a fraction of their attention... And that was ok! It's just what happened in night clubs right!?
But then we start journeying with Jesus... Constantly getting to know ourselves in him, learning about his ways, his teaching, his miracles, his heart!!
On this journey our hearts and minds and morals begin to change as well... They become more in line with His... And all of a sudden, we go into a night club and those 'semi-average looking ladies' are now absolutly stunning... And the fact that they are selling themselves short is all of a sudden a huge deal, and something that is realy hurting you, laying heavy on your heart!
You want to go over... Turn them away and remind them of how stunning they truly are! How significant and talented they are, and how nothing beneficial could ever come from their actions!
Journeying with God is like taking off your shoes... We continue walking the same earth, seeing the same things. But now we don't just spectate everything... We feel it!
Jesus has changed my heart!
Clearly after watching this movie tonight.
I used to be happy watching people act in demonic ways, because I was none the wiser.
I dunno: I think it's just cool physically feeling and acknowledging how far God has brought you. How much He has actually affected your life, how much He has changed what we see and accept as acceptable! The way He has completely flipped my whole outlook on life, and the way He now allows us to see things how He sees them... In a deep but challenging way!
Being at home with God is absolutly, incredibly, indescribable!!... (I'm not even going to try and put something so magnifisantly beautiful into words because I'm getting sleepy and it's getting late), but it's definatly not always comfortable!
When God is glad about something we feel His Joy!
But likewise, when something 'not so great' happens, when God's heart breaks over one of His children, or over something that has happened, we also feel His pain.
I'm glad God is in control of the emotions and feelings of my heart...
:)
Goodnight guys, God Bless xxx
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